Commitment

I ate my words.

Before this I had promised Kenny that I won’t talk to Ai Ling anymore, due to some personal matters. It’s an agreement between us.

However, we had an outing today. I can’t understand why we are hanging out, logic just can’t solve this puzzle.

Days before Sok Fun called me up and asked me for a trip to genting. I declined her at first, taking consideration that I would meet Ai Ling there. After a while, I struggled abit questioning myself: why the hell you care about all this, sure Ai Ling had agreed before since they are close friend.

I picked up the phone and agreed to join them.

In the end we postponed the trip and replaced it with karaoke session. That’s how we ended up in TimeSquare singing k, watching movie and having dinner together. Knowing the fact I couldn’t just keep quiet and spoil the mood, I have to be a diplomat. Although I am not getting much response from them and most of the time I am like acting a jerk trying to get their attention, I am glad that at least try my part to establish our communication. Whether how they interpret it, it’s their choice.

We are coursemate after all. We don’t need to heat things up until we couldn’t settle down on a simple casual outing. Years down the lane we might meet up each other in our career, it’s better to make friends rather than enemies, no matter how we disapprove others behavior. Opening our hearts accepting others is the only way out.

I saw Wai Heng the tough guy carrying his SLR camera. It’s been some time since we meet. Recently I heard that he had set up flikr for his photo, some of them had even won him awards. At last his professionalism shines.

On the way back, I had Lai Ying and Pei Ying together with me on the journey. We have a deep talk in relationship matters. I am glad that I insisted that relationship shouldn’t be taken lightly. For me, the more relationship you had before, the less you will believe in it. Yeah, folks like me always at the losing end, but you know what? I still have faith in love, and I am still feeling it intense within me. I am not a player in love, and I never good in it. I’m okay even if I have to live alone for the rest of my life.

I think commitment is everything in establishing a long-term relationship.

I had played my part, so for the genting trip, I guess I have to absent for not eating my words the second time.

Men don’t do that.

Apology for those who wish to comment, I don’t think I will approve any.

About me

Hi there, I’m Edward Low.




If you feel unease with my name, you must been met me and known me in real life. Before this I am known by quite a number of names. It’s not like I did this purposely, by chance or by nature people tend to forget my name I have to name myself with “names” that is easier to be remembered. Here is the list:

If you known me by the name 炜炜 (Wei Wei),
you are the closest people in my life,
my dearest family.

If you known me by the name 敬炜 (Jing wei),
You are closest to my heart,
My close friend.

If you known me by the name Kheng Ooi / KO,
You met me in school/college,
My classmate.

If you known me by the name Ah Ooi,
You met me in workplace,
My colleague or client.

That’s how my name varies over different scope in my life.




As my age climb and worked for a few temporary jobs, I felt a necessity to have a consistent name, and easy for people to remember. So when I was about to start this blog, I gave myself a long thought on the name I going to have, and I landed myself on this name.

Yeah, I’m Edward. From now on I will introduce myself with this name, whether you like it or not. If you happened to have somebody named anything close to mine who had done bad things on you, like stole your precious Renoma underwear or cheated your grandma’s marriage jewelry, you can call me with the former name I have. Absolutely no problem, I understand :D






I was born on the 23rd January 1986, which makes me 20 this year. At this point when I am writing this entry, I have just unofficially graduated from Informatics KL, which the only thing I am waiting is my diploma certificate.

How shall I put this? I will be a holder in Diploma in Computer Studies Majoring in Computer Science. However, I am not proud of it or whatsoever. Most of the time, you will find me ranting at my own college. The college is not as famous as few years before, they are being more and more commercialize, until they ignored their responsibility as an education centre. I’m rather disappointed.

Before this I had my early education in Bamboo Kindergarden, SJK © Mun Choong, SMK Batu 5; where I spent my good childhood days having fun and making friends. Some of them I still keep contact with.




I live in the capital city of Malaysia called Kuala Lumpur. It’s a vicious city with tons of skyscrapers and modern buildings with a blend of rich cultural heritage and friendly citizen. You will amazingly find three main races here: the Malay, Chinese and Indian, apart from the east peninsular Kadazan and Iban; working together and adapted to each other culture.



Malaysia is a politically stable country and we are walking towards the vision 2020, where we will become developed country like Hong Kong and Singapore. We might not get there in time, but we will definitely reach there soon or later, steadily.

We hate racial discrimination and on top of that, we hate war. That’s why we are able to live together diplomatically and peacefully.








I started this blog on 4th July 2006, the day after I am having a farewell party with my friend Sok Boon who was going to reporting for her new University. We had a gathering at her house with a bunch of secondary friend and we talked about our ups and downs in life. By then, I never knew I had change so much, and how my close ones evaluate me.

I had learnt an important lesson in life: How we think about ourselves is very different from how others think.





The main reason I started this blog is to rediscover myself, improve myself so that I could be a better friend, son, brother, or perhaps partner-in-life for the future. Relationship in life is the most precious thing I could ever find, I could never live without it. Hope that I could use this site to keep in touch with my love ones which I couldn’t see everyday.

I am grateful that at a point of life someone had pointed out my weakness, which I never noticed before. She said two words that give a big impact to me.

Be sincere.


I dedicate this line for her. Thanks KeXiou.





Here is my website, and this is me.

I’m Edward.

My travel bug

Recently a lot people around me suggest me to travel, directly or indirectly.

My friend Pei Voon is the first one. She’s my secondary schoolmate who went to Perth to study after graduated from form 5. Oh gosh there is where my favourite blogger KennySia studied before. I want to visit there!

So she suggested me to visit her together with Su-ee, since she’s going there for a vacation around October or November. After I had asked her how much roughly it will cost for the flight, I said: “Forget bout it..” Yet still, deep within my mind, I actually yelling: “I wanna go!”

Nichole a.k.a. leng mui who just back from Shanghai said her trip is not so intriguing. Anyhow, I am so jealous! One week wor! The furthest I went is Kelantan for 5-days-camping-trip back in my secondary school days; and the biggest reward I brought from there is my healthily-tanned skin. :)

Yesterday Winnie came to my place and told me she going to complete her final year degree in Queensland. The year alone will cost her around RM70k. Gosh, 70k.. what a hefty sum it is! Scholarship might help her abit, but yet it is a huge amount. Good luck in collecting the fund my friend, and invite me for your graduation ceremony, if you made it. LOL

My god, you guys are rubbing my desire to travel, and I gonna burst anytime now.

The next campus I gonna visit is Nothingham Uni and UTAR.
Review of campuses is coming soon, i’m working on it.

KAMPAI feasta

Another day spent at Berjaya TimeSquare.



It’s been long time since I see my Major-in-Multimedia friends. Actually we had planned to hang out together the night before Nichole departure for Shanghai vacation, but we didn’t make it. We should have been. The plane crashed and nobody survived in the incident.

Luckily it wasn’t the plane Nichole had departure. :P

Nichole has been away for a week. We decided to have a karaoke session to express how much we have missed her, so that’s why we are here, Neway k-box.



From left to right: Jay, me, Nichole, Liew

Yeep, they are my so-called Major-in-Multimedia friends. We took the same course in college just that they we are in different in majoring. They took Multimedia and I took Computer Science, and we had separated in class because of that. However we still hang out casually, doing what the youngster should be doing at this stage of life. Yes, I am no different than other youngster, besides than having ten times more taste and hundred times better-looking.

AHAaah, no la. I could have a lot girlfriend if that’s true. In fact I am still a single for quite a long time. Relationship for me is just like a lock and a key, must fit in exactly in order make it works. And that’s no simple task.




However, Liew and Nichole seem to found it. They are having two-years-old relationship currently, and they are maintaining it steadily. Let’s hope one day we will able to witness this lovely couple’s wedding. :D




This cool guy here is no simple also. I can’t really tell how the progress is, but it has been very far, abit too far perhaps. LOL

And here I am, happily single with plenty of time blogging and expanding my social circle.

让我们Get High 用双手把天撑开
Oh~ Get High 要所有人都明白
泪水都不应该 因为我有你的爱
baby you are always on my mind

Yooohoo~ It’s KAMPAI feasta! To be honest this is my virgin taste on this exotic drink. It certainly tastes far more better than other sparkling juice, with tinie-winnie-bit of alcohol composition inside.





Nah.. don’t be fooled by the label. In Malaysia anything above 0.1% is considered as alcohol, even Shandy. It’s same like pork, if the container touches with pork for only once, for the rest of the time, anything you used with it will be considered as non-halal.

I just made a statement and I never commented anything. You be the judge.




KAMPAI is actually a Japanese word for “Cheers!”. I accidentally found it over the net when I’m trying to do some information gathering. The website they provide on the label is dubious. How could they 2 different website? And how could both of the website given is not working?!





I smell something fishy. I wonder if I bought the pirated ones? But yet, it tastes so good!

One bottle each person is certainly not enough, so we bought half a dozen back home, where we can enjoy when we are having our favorite midnight activity.





Drink and be merry; nobody gets drunk.

What a wonderful life.

Informatics made it again

Informatics College made their way into newspaper column in Sin Chiew Jit Poh, again.

Yes folks, again.

Before this, there is a time where Sin Chiew Jit Poh uncovers the complain of the college’s student, where they claimed Informatics College forced them to transfer to KL branch and gave them little compensation. They even brought the issue to DAP and all the students have a nice photo shooting session with DAP’s associate. I say, it certainly make me feel proud.

By the way, do you know how much is the compensation? 200 deduction from tuition fee, in Riggit Malaysia.

Being situation around 100 meters from the Suria KLCC, they should call themselves idiots for giving students compensation as low as that. What can you do with 200 riggit around a highly-developed area? No even for a month of transport fee, a month of meal OR a month of rental charges. They really ask for it.

Somewhere something is really wrong. Informatics’ big name is flushing into the toilet bowl, and god knows who shits on it before being flushed.

This time, they made way to top 25 mtv hitz-chart.



If you weren’t a Chinese literate, let me translate to you.

Ministry of High Education :
25 colleges’ licenses have been striped due to inactivity.

Name list of 25 colleges
1. ..............
x. ..............
x. ..............
x. ..............
16. Institut Informatics, Miri (Sarawak)
x. ..............
x. ..............
x. ..............
24. Institut Informatics, Sandakan (Sabah)
25. ..............

It’s a huge bang, a loud one.

Putra or Star?

Before I start allow me to bring your attention to these terms, which I extracted from wikipedia.org:

LRT n.
three-letter abbreviation of Light Rail Transit.


Putra Light Rail Transit n.
1. one of three lines in Kuala Lumpur's light rail transit (LRT) network.
2. formally known as Kelana Jaya Line.


Star Light Rail Translit n.
1. two of three lines in Kuala Lumpur's light rail transit (LRT) network.
2. formally known as Ampang Line and Sri Petaling Line.

I am looking for college to continue my degree course, so yesterday I have this phone conversation with Y to confirm the place and time for our visit to SEGI College. Y is my coursemate and she already decided to study there, so I asked her out to bring me tour around her new college. Although SEGI is not a college in my list, just to check things up, you know.

E : Eh, how you go there?
Y : LRT loh.

E : I know, which LRT?
Y : LRT lah!

E : duh.. Star izit?
Y : no, LRT ah!

E : Putra?
Y : Yalah Putra is LRT loh! You don’t know meh?
(with a you-don’t-know-my-mum-is-women expression)

You know why I my first guess is Star LRT, because last time I met another moron who prefers Star Light Rail Transit be called as LRT.

X : Oi, you want me to tell you how many times? LRT lah!
E : Star and Putra also called LRT which one you mean?

X : Star is LRT lah, Star-LRT. Putra is Putra, Putra only..

I think one day I shall call up these two fella, let them beat each other till death. Whoever wins shall rename the LRTs station to their liking.

Until then, I shall act like i passed my UPSR English Paper and call Star LRT and Putra LRT as they are.

Carrefour Kepong Branch

It’s another family day.



Since the opening of Carrefour in kepong we have yet to pay it a visit. It really looks grand from the outside, with all those flag and promotion banners. But heck! If you take away all the promotion banners and hide the trolleys, it really looks like a car showroom.





See what I mean?

Okay la.. let’s pretend you never heard of Carrefour and be amazed for a while.







It’s the opening of the 9th Carrefour hypermarket in Malaysia, and it’s reaally happening. Unlike other stupid promotion where they increase the price by 50% and give you a 70% discount, this is where you can find CHEAP stuff, and I really meant it.



Tell me, in what occasion you can find stuff selling at this price?


A pair of shoes that will make you put it down and take another one to confirm the price

I am looking for slippers, and my mum sarcastically told me to take it and wear as slippers. What a joke! No I wont compromised, I want REAL slippers!

At least I buy the one with the same price lor *blink blink*





The building is so new until you can even smell the scent of the fresh paint, and some part of the area hasn’t completely built yet. But it never stops the crowd from pouring in. It’s insane.




So much difference when you in TimeSquare and Sg Wang, where there’s a lot couples dress up and romantically strolling around holding each others hand whisper all those unbearable words; here you’ll only find serious neighbors with load-full of trolley prepare to knock you down if you stand if front of the promotion stuff.

I have to be careful of where I stand, really.





They even have their every own food court.



Ever since the death of Steve Irwin I always wonder how a stingray could cause his death. It’s a tragic. Due to my bad vocabulary in English, before this is don’t know what a stingray is until Edwin told me it’s “Pou yu” in Cantonese. A Pou Yu took the hero’s life away? You must be kidding me!



I wouldn’t believe, not before I see this:






It scares the SHIT out of me!

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Memorial of Steven Irwin:



You leave us too soon.. mate.

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I am a Nutcase

Doing my regular shopping today, but thanks to the weather, I can go no where but stay indoor in TimeSquare. With all those overpriced item from the shops, not too soon I found myself bored to tears window shopping around.

I don’t even want to waste my energy put the clothes on me.


They are from Jasmine Female Magazine. They cut hair and sell Hennessey. Don’t ask me how they related.




In desperation, I gotta find something to do to keep me occupied. And I have done something stupid, something I had never done before.





I watched a lone movie! The time is just nice, hell yeah.


By coincidence the one sitting beside me was also a lone LADY too. I timed to go for it when the advertisement go silent.

“Halo, is here F6?”
“Yeah, I’m sitting F7 so I suppose you are right.”
“Ohh..”

I turned back my head looked at the screen and never looked back again.

Her pimples worried me.

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Short Note:
I am like taking forever to complete the tanglung festival entry, isshhh..

I'll be blogging alot these days and visting colleges around KL. Hope i can do a review for each college.



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Go on

DGHX and i was having a conversation on our visit to APIIT tomorrow, then out of sudden he mentioned the names that I isn't fond of. Everybody knows it's a taboo to me, and i guess i have made it officially today.

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DGHX : btw if i organize k-house if (AL and YW) goin u joinin ma?
DGHX : -.-'
Eddie : sorry la.. u know i dun fan them
DGHX : "fan"
Eddie : u guys have fun la
Eddie : just ignore me
DGHX : what lai de?
Eddie : fan in english
DGHX : -.-'
DGHX : o
DGHX : friend
DGHX : -.-'
DGHX : so means if dhey out u won't la
DGHX : =/ haih hard being an organizer
Eddie : just tell them i fall from stairs or what
Eddie : have my leg broken
Eddie : anything to ur imagination
DGHX : seng keeps pushin me 2 organize an event cuz he wanna reunite and have chats with YW so i'm being used as middle person
DGHX : -.-'
Eddie : oh no..
DGHX : no what -.-'
Eddie : i am tired of them three ady
DGHX : =.='
Eddie : pls.. keep them away from me
DGHX : O.o
Eddie : seen enough hindustan
DGHX : like they bite
DGHX : -.-'
DGHX : hindustan what lai de?
Eddie : u know the bollywood thingy
Eddie : the indian dancing around
DGHX : so it assumes that u won't be joinin haha
Eddie : usually got a tree in the middle
Eddie : no
Eddie : absoluly
DGHX : sien.... hard being organizer
Eddie : btw they wanna reunit their pasal la
Eddie : why me
DGHX : if A is not going B will not go if C were to go without B either A going D will not go
DGHX : haih
DGHX : ><
Eddie : tat's funny
Eddie : if i dun go who wont go?
Eddie : i never tot i so influencial
DGHX : realli sum times its hard being organizer !!!
DGHX : look if its plotted that u have no info dat those 2 freaks will turn out then it will pissed u off when u arrived and meet ppl u dislyke and u will blame me
Eddie : true
Eddie : thanks for telling me
DGHX : so i'm being the accused
Eddie : then u guys go on
DGHX : its jz a plan....
DGHX : ok bah next time if those 2 ain comin' along ony approach u 2 join ba
Eddie : sorry to bring trouble to u
Eddie : but personally
Eddie : i really XXX those fella
DGHX : -.-'
Eddie : so in the near future any gathering oso u guys just go
Eddie : ignore me
DGHX : ......
DGHX : its true what they say if lovers cannot be couples their end up being opponents
DGHX : =/
DGHX : >< haih ok ba
Eddie : wait a min
Eddie : we never be lover okay? :
DGHX : okok take dat back :X
DGHX : chill its jz a sayin :X
Eddie : i wanted to tell u what happened
Eddie : i sure u dun wanna know it
Eddie : so just keep on ur simple life and let me alone
DGHX : deep lvl of detail of what has happend i have no intention of knowing if its personal and requires a trust from mi
DGHX : cuz if its broken i dowan 2 b d one blame... if its personal affairs between u both its best keep it between u guys only...
Eddie : yeep, well said
Eddie : btw.. if can
DGHX : haha....
Eddie : stay away from those punk
DGHX : -.-'
DGHX : no comment :X
DGHX : friend friend only nvm de la
Eddie : alright i am not the one who judge
Eddie : i very particular of some stuff
DGHX : sensitive
DGHX : haha
Eddie : something i cannot accept is cannot
DGHX : O.O
Eddie : dunno how to say it in english la:
DGHX : =/
DGHX : okok "respect"
Eddie : if only u knew
Eddie : Okay la u can call alot ppl to go ma
Eddie : must call me de meh
DGHX : O.o
DGHX : where r v now? k-house u were mentionin?
Eddie : u got alot plan in ur mind?
DGHX : ok ok ic ic
DGHX : i have planned but without participation of u so call "human beings" a plan is still ain gonna work
DGHX : got mi?
Eddie : want me to cut ribbon for ur shop openning?
DGHX : ok la i wanna afk jor goin out 4 midnight snack... will reply asap when back desk
DGHX : o.o
Eddie : just go on la.. less me one ppl wont die one la
Eddie : want me to pay the bill izit
DGHX : =/ yah sure thing
DGHX : ><
DGHX : Afk liao... sis grumbling tata


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It's no big deal actually, bring down the hype. I just find that i'm hard to trust anyone of them.

Sorry, I might look friendly, but I am not that kind of people who friend anyone that comes to me. For me friend require trust, and I trust my friend a lot, without a doubt.

When i have to think twice/trice before taking in your words, i don't see in any way our friendship would work.

Sensitive, stubborn, jealousy, not gentleman.. say anything you can think of,
I don’t mind. As long as they’re not around, I feel a lot safer.

There's no point in wearing shoes that doesn’t fit, right?

Enjoy, go on your life. I’ll be doing the same thing.
All the best.

ArtWork Gallery

Officially added an entry to keep my artwork collection. Everything here is of my original artwork, and I made it for the sole purpose of pleasure, very often deeply related to my daily life, or personally.

I do not mind to share it out, but I truly appreciate if you would let me know before you take any of this from my website. I might give you my original copy, which quality hasn’t scaled down to speed up loading time.

I will be happy to do some graphic design if you ask, programming or computer fixing.

But frankly, I’m no expert in any field :P

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September Header:




September in KL is a raining season. Rain is always related to melancholy mood, in the same time it’s refreshing and relaxing.


Rain·Memory
“Droplets of rain light in weight, but it leave marks when they hit the ground.
Daily happenings might look insignificant, but it shapes the person I am today.”


The background sets outside a newly built double-storey-house near my place.



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Feel free to comment.

The Last 48 hours

I’m leaving Informatics.



It sounds too good to be true. After two and a half years following their outdated syllabus and their crappy facilities, I really gain far less than what I expected. Spending a single second wasting my life here anymore, hell no!



Actually after my form 5 I suppose to further my studies in APIIT, or currently known as UCTI (University College of Technology and Innovative), but luck strikes me after a interview by Sin Chiew Jit Poh, got my clown face pasted on the newspaper back in 2004 March/April and awarded me a scholarship.




What a shock that have been. Hey look, I’m didn’t cheat on the Slip Pendapatan, neither I scored a fantastic SPM result, with just lower-than-average 6As, while almost all the student there hit at least 11As, they choose me? WHY? By that time I really couldnt see that coming, nearly sign up for APIIT and THAT change the course of my life, completely.


Even until now I couldn’t understand their decision. I possess the X-factor?





Upon leaving the college, the most significant thing that I will remember is something bout female, although there are not much there.
To be honest, the best lesson I have learnt is: Keep troublesome womens(*replaced) at your arm’s length. It had made me painfully lose some friend, and endless quarrel among each other. You would understand me if you were in my shoes. But in fact, you won’t.

What will you do if your best buddy’s “girlfriend” text the message I LOVE YOU to you?

I had tired of explaining what others would never believe. I have confronted the problem, and the only solution for me is to expel them from my friend list. Believe me, I have no better choice.

Hey(*replaced), thanks for screwing up my college life and wish you in hell.

(*some changes in words, my younger cousin might be reading it.)




However, there is warmth in Informatics too.




I stumble when I opened up this card. Stella, thanks for your card, but you misspelled my name you know. It’s nothing close to my real name “Kheng Ooi”.

Koi?

Want to make me sounds cuter is it?



Had my last meal in this café.




To be exact, last visit to this café.




Thai fried rice with Nescafe Ice, combination perfectó.





It’s tasty, but tag with quite expensive price.



The last exam.




An event that decides me to stay loser in this college or move on my life. I have 4 subjects left after Ah Shum awarded me a D for my final project, just around the border of fail. I personally dislike this lecturer because his teaching sucks hard, but it’s agreeable on the marks he gave me. He is just being too harsh.

I should thank him for expecting highly of me. I will be better.

What it’s like to have exam, and to finish exam?





See the difference?


I have a habit of quarantining myself when I study. There’s no way I could study when someone I know is close to me. My mouth will spill some words out, it's a reflex motion.






And here comes the best part, two person came to share my table. And the conversation started.






Soon enough I found out we are sitting for the same exam. They are quite nervous when I told them I’m fail this subject last term and I’m re-taking it this round. I told them how difficult it was, then I hand over the paper I sat for last term.


They speak in a heavy American accent plus mangish style:

“Hey dude, look at this look at this, this is what we studied! It’s so easy..”

“See? I told you. Study pass years they repeat the questions like hell”

“Shit man.. if only this is our paper”

They start to throw question from the paper to each other and they answer as if they have swallowed the whole book.

Oh boy, I feel like poking my head into the ground.

Later in the exam hall when I just finished answering my section A, the guy with red shirt wave to me with a wide smile on his face. He is signaling me he had finished the whole paper.

Bloody hell...

A friend from PARIS

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Short talk:
Gosh, I missed “one in a mil contest” again..

Anyone can tell me who’s kicked out last round? I hope is Farah.. ^^


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Friends gathering again.



Received a call from see Yean a.k.a. cikgu Tan couple days ago, telling me that she came back from PARIS to breathe some fresh air here in KL.

Yeep, instead of calling me at the right time here in Malaysia, she always follow the time-zone in France and call me while I’m sleeping. People sleep at 10am, you know?

So, instead of PERLIS, I really thought that she had flew to PARIS.




Of course, since she came back from such a far place, I surely don’t wanna lose a chance taking photo with her. PARIS wor..

Lolz

Merdeka Day

Today is the 49th celebration of the national day, cites are filled with flags and slogan “Keranamu Malaysia”.



However I have to admit that the celebration in KL isn’t as grand as before. Hard to see folks put flags on their cars and private shop houses around these days, I wonder what happened.




Anyway i know that’s not the only way to show our gratitude towards our country. But honestly, how many people among us will greet each other with “Happy Merdeka” when we see others? In most occasions, the reaction that you’ll get is an ignorance look on the face.

“Are you mad?!”





The office of Dewan Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur (DBKL). Before the age of 12 i always thought that DBKL is the people who collect the garbage from my house yard.

I was wrong, they also do a lot of community work, such as

flag guessing competition?




Let me count, 22 floors with 10 flags hanging outside each floor, 220 flags!

Wait..





There’s more, 4 sides of the building also have flags! 220 multiply by 4 which make 880 flags!

Yay.. Happy Merdeka!